Thursday, September 29, 2011

My Permanent Heartbreak


Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever.
You're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart, you're the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you and I don't know why.
A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried, neither would a million tears, I know I've cried.
Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet.

Sometimes the memories are worth the pain.Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye.

We are afraid to care to much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.
People think it is holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go.
I made a choice to finally let go, because I can't stand the pain, it's time for my last tear to fall and smile again.

I wish he meant it when he kissed me cause then I could look back and see someone who loved me but I can only go back and see someone who used me.
You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?
So... from now on... when you think of me... just remember that I could've been the best thing you ever had.
You hurt me more then I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more then you deserve, why am I such a fool?
I don't know which I would rather believe... that you never did care or that you eventually stopped.
Hold my hand, just one more time, so I can remind myself why it is that I can't get over you.
I think its time I let you go... and that is hard to do because part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life.
While I was holding on all you did was let go.
I just wonder how many people never get the one they want, but end up with the one they're supposed to have.
All I'm asking for is one night together. Just you and me. All alone. And if you can honestly say you don't feel anything for me after that night, I will finally let you go.
Sometimes all you need is a broken heart to realize that something even better is right in front of our eyes, just waiting to be found.
Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.
No one can promise they'll never hurt you because at one time or another, it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spend together will be worth the pain in the end.
The worst feeling in the world is knowing you've been used and lied to.
Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever.
Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone.
Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.
There were reasons we met, reasons for the good times and reasons for the bad times, and most importantly a reason to end. We have more to learn, more to experience and more loving to do in this lifetime.
But I especially miss the hot nights in those hotel rooms when he was all around me, the taste, and the scent and the feel of him. And I'd fall asleep in his arms, with the sound of his heartbeat being the last thing I heard before going to sleep. I ache with longing.
There's only one "reason" a man dumps you; he doesn't want you.
It's not my fault if I can't help looking at you. It's not my fault if I can't stop calling you. It's not my fault I do like you. My only mistake was to fall to much in love with you.
I want you to know that you will never find another girl that will put up with as much crap as I do and enjoy it. You will never find another girl that will put up with you and love you the way I do. Just so you know.

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